A Forever Kind of Slumber

A room full of mirrors

And I see you

Everywhere

A whisper of my name, amplified

And I hear you

Everywhere

A brief caress of my face

And I feel you

Everywhere

The slightest of all kisses

And I taste you

Everywhere

A slight breeze carries your scent

And I smell you

Everywhere

I have thought of moments like this

Begged for them

Cried to God for them until all that comes out is a pathetic whimper

And now you are everywhere

And I am beyond grateful

Beyond happy

Beyond satisfied

My senses converge and everything is you

I breathe in and out

And steel myself to give you everything

I reach out a hand to begin my proclamation

But you can see it my eyes

And I know

Because I can see it in yours

And as we drift together to make things complete

I open my eyes into darkness

A fan blowing my loneliness over me in waves

Twisted covers surround me

As I float on my pillow top mattress, alone

And tears full of salt and anguish join my pillow

Because I know that I just had you

The only way I could

The way I've had you for so long

And all I can see, hear, feel, taste, smell

Is the acute emptiness

That always follows these dreams

As my heart slows its rapid beating

I silently implore every power known to man

For these false, faint rendezvous to end

So I can let you go

So I can be happy again

The energy put into these desperate pleas

Is more than I can bear

And so I let myself fall back

Into a familiar darkness

A restless and unfulfilling slumber

Knowing that the next night will be the same

And a small part of me welcomes it

Because if I can only have you in my dreams

I'll gladly sleep forever